summer has finally arrived. i feel like i've been waiting for it in this empty pit of ice and desolation. i really believe that i have seasonal depression. as soon as that warm breeze and sun hits my face, i am the happiest person alive. i can walk around barefoot and not worry about my toes going numb. the best was today--i was sitting outside with my dog and it was beautitful. everything was beautiful. the sky was so blue, and the wind was just right. then out of nowhere, there was a sudden cloudburst over my head!! it rained on my dog and i for about 5 minutes while the sun was shining down on my brother playing basketball 2 houses down from me. it was one of the most miraculous phenomenons i have ever encountered. i loved every minute of it. i just sat there, barefoot, in the rain, looking at the sun, with my favorite dog in the whole world. what a perfect start for the summer.

love.

so it's over...

or so i think. i dunno. i just want josh to be happy. if it's with me, then great. but there are some things that need to change. if it's without me, then great. i hope the best for him. i'm a strong girl. i'm still young. life goes on.

i got an A on my drawing portfolio yesterday! i've never been so happy about an A before. seriously. what a relief. AND i got an A on my last french test. things are definitely looking up for this semester. last week of classes... then finals.. then back to petsmart.

i'm excited for this summer, so i can make some money. but i'm even more excited for next semester. our apartment's going to kick so much ass. you can't even comprehend.

saw muse and razorlight on sunday. holy shit. absolutely amazing show. razorlight was extremely impressive. foxy lead singer for sure. muse was incredible, as i expected.

going to lovedrug and copeland tomorrow with MANDI, just cuz she's hot. i'm super excited. josh was supposed to go, but i don't think that's happening now. i believe mr. gavin wll be joining me instead. should be a good time. that kid's pretty damn cool.

that's all for now. leave me some love. <3

uh oh.. i think it's another pretty day.    good. i'm glad. so my easter rocked--mostly in the morning (before i went to bed). except for one thing...

i got a phone call from the ex and his ex (not anymore apparently) at about 3:30 AM. SHE wanted to tell me how she had heard bad things about me, (although i have never actually met her before). she said things like how i didn't care about phill and how i get around...  right. all i have to say to that is, fuck off. you don't know me, and unless you REALLY know me, you have no right to make judgements. she doesn't know my past, doesn't know what i've done and HAVEN'T done. yeah, i've done some things that maybe i shouldn't have, but i AM human. i'm sure she's not proud of everything either. but there's nothing i regret... at all. so her and all of their friends can back the fuck off. and to be honest, there is no one who knows her that truly knows me well enough to say the things she said about me with any sort of accuracy or proof. i just found the entire situation ridiculous and rather insulting.

i'm just venting. it didn't hurt my feelings or anything. i'm not immature like a junior in high school... what a baby. yipes. oh well. i just thought it was pretty damn lame.

aside from that, everything's peachy. especially this picture...

 i didn't know 2 people could be that cute

love